Rant

I'm pretty pissed at hotmail. I've had a hotmail account since college and after a while I used it mostly for "junk" email sign ups or other stuff I didn't really want in my "real" email box. I also used it to store various old emails that I wanted to keep, like cute love-emails from my pre-husband and other touching stuff people had sent me throughout the past 8 years or so. Granted, I hadn't been checking it all that frequently, but imagine my surprise when I sent a recent cute husband email there for safekeeping and it got rejected. ??eh?? So, I go to log in, and it lets me in, but tells me that there are now all these rules about how often I have to check it and what I can use it for, etc, AND all my old email was gone. Wiped clean. WTH? I feel like they could have at least sent me a couple warning emails or something. So, there you have it. My relationship with hotmail is over. My affair with deeeelite is over after 8 years. And fair warning for anyone else that may have a hotmail account... beware...

Happiness...is a warm breast.

***Warning*** discussion of breasts and breastfeeding below.***
I have a child with a serious boob addiction. N. is working on 11 months old now and she is seriously committed to breastfeeding, especially as it relates to sleeping. I am having major sleep issues with her, and a lot of it surrounds her need to sleep with a boob in her mouth. She still sleeps with us every night because I'm too soft to let her scream in her crib for hours until she cries herself to sleep. You would think that sleeping right with mommy would be sufficient comfort, but no, a boob in the mouth is also necessary. If she wakes up in the middle of the night and !alas! no boob in her mouth, she starts crying and thrashing around. It has been over two weeks since she had boobs throughout the night and it is still a big deal to her. Everyone has told me that it only takes them 3 nights to get over these things, and she's still complaining strongly over 2 weeks later. I'm really at my wits end. The plan was to successfully wean her over night and then make the attempt to get her to sleep in her own bed, but we've just not been able to cross this hurdle yet. And, yes, I have tried the pacifier, but given the fact that she's never used them before, introducing them now is somewhat of a joke. I stick it in her mouth and she grabs it and looks at it and then at me with this incredulous look like, "you expect me to buy that? I know where the boobs are and this ain't attached to your body." It got so bad the other night that she started trying to suck on my nose or chin.
And I expected to wean around a year old! I'm really not sure what I'm going to do about this, but we really need to find some solutions because our sleep is just getting more and more disrupted. Suggestions???